Its has been to long my friends. I find myself sitting here at 1 in the morning thinking how long it has been since I have written to you. The funny thing is I am always hard pressed as to what to say to you. I yet I can remember that it is here that I usually express all of myself. Granted I like talking about there is something about the anonymity of a journal entry that makes things easier. Where to begin.
Angels Returning home
It has always seemed odd to me how one day someone could be a perfect 10 and then another drop to a 3. If you lead my last entry you say something about my grandmother. Let me fill you in. She was my Great Grand Mother. What a life she led. i can't tell you of all her stories because well there just isn't enough space on this journal but also its the Internet and people are sick. I will share with you one. She had not eaten an egg since the age of 12. You see she group up in the time where you had to go out and get the eggs from the hen house for breakfast. One morning on her trip back she tripped and all the eggs went flying into the air. When she fell all the eggs came hurdling at her. She had to spend the next few hours getting egg out of her clothes and offer herself. From then on she never ate another egg.
Thats an odd story I know but it has always been one of my favorites. Now though she has passed..... It is very sad. I told you in my very last entry that I would bring something to show you all as I have in the past. I did make something, but I am to make a liar of myself as I will not be sharing it here... at least not yet. This is a wound that will take a while to heal. And for many in my family its still a harsh blow as she was the glue that held us all together. I can tell you though who has seen it.
It has always bothered me how when someone passes away, how quick we are to bury them. Its very unsettling to me. I ask that to people and they say its because of how fast the body decomposes. I can understand the science but it just seems that we are in a hurry to get rid of them. I know its selfish but when these things happen I am never ready to go to the wake, or carry the casket, or drive to the cemetery, or have that awkward feeling of how I can't wait for that day to end.
Man Alive! Your 75!
Its always fun to fly. I have to admit. In fact I have so many frequent flyer miles I can circle the world at least 1.5 times by now. It has never lost its luster. Everyone has their own routine. Mine is get to the gate, find a computer/car/trucking magazine, flip through pages, put on the head phones, rock out, and get on the plane. I always take the aisle seat. Not a fan of the window, not sure why.... just aren't. But this was going to be a great trip.
My family and I caught a plane to the south for my 75th birthday.... surprise birthday that is. He was so surprised he didn't know what to say and to tell you the truth I am sure it knocked him on his ear. I have never seen him so happy. My family has always been very close and he makes it all that more fun with his shaking and Santa like demeanor and stature. Now to continue with those who have seen the special work I did for my great grandmother I will state this. My grandfather is one of 3 of her children. at exactly 6:00PM I gave him my present and told him it was imperative that he opened it at this exact time because you see, I had also given a copy of his present to his brother and sister with explicit instructions not to open it until 6:00PM that day. It was probably the best picture of my great grandmother we have ever taken along with a poem composed expressly by me. He weeped. Just as he did when we were together for her funeral. He then got called from his siblings and they all expressed to each other a better and more profound understanding and awareness of each other and felt just that much closer. What a way to celebrate 75.
Leap Of Faith & Suicide
Many would say that marriage is the end. Many say its the beginning. I find it to be a great step into and adventure to children, a great place to live, and never being lonely. I hate being lonely. More over I think that marriage is a changing constitution with the times. Though its a big, extravagant event, I find that the traditions have gotten out of hand and that personal flair does not mix well with the normal styling of the "traditional" wedding. I appeal to your wallet and tell you that most weddings costs in the tens of thousands of dollars in the U.S., of which I have tens of thousands of nothing even close to that. But besides the cost of the wedding, the endless messages of people wanting to come to the wedding; besides the stress of changing everything about life and the blatant enforcement of laws and statures about what to do and what not to do for a wedding, I bent down on one knee and proposed to the very person I both despised and loved only 1 year ago. In my own form of course, which as I will tell you, nothing to change the history books for.
If any of you read my entry about how romance has been dragged out thanks to scores of movies and love stories adorning romance novels in paperback, I can tell you that when you have been with the same woman for 6 years you could grow comfortable with the way things are. That was the problem long ago so I figured I would change things up a bit. I did spend money on the ring. It was worth it to see her smile.... at least I think she was smiling..... there was more kissing..... Its all kind of blur at this point. None the less I can state that the nice guy (if that is what people call me) has finished last. Well not so much finished as can see the finish line. We aren't the everyday couple. We are in many ways exact opposites and I think we can tolerate each other, but where we connect can only be described as basic Nickelodeon cartoons, love of video games, obsession of our cats, and a carnal attraction to each others saucy curves and exciting angles.
In conclusion for now my friends, I reach out across the stars to give you a look into my life. If you have made it this far it means you can read a block of text and are still interested. Either that or I have bored you for the past 10 minutes. If I have please leave a message and I will refund that time with some funny YouTube videos or even a cheaply made flash game. Either way appreciate you following along.
Oh final thought. I thought I would get into this fad of having a blog somewhere like Wordpress or Blogspot. Its nice to have those things but in the end I have a DeviantArt with a journal and thats all I really need. So please stop by every once and awhile and check in on my work and of course these short transmissions of my life.
See you in the stars.